SIGHT

Waking up going about her day when the phone rang it was a familiar voice she heard on the other end. Mattie body shaking with disbelief she said in a loud voice when and what happen. The conversation was stopped by the voice of her husband saying what happen. Tears ran down her face as she continued to hold the phone. It couldn't been that she said as she wiped the tears from her face. The day that her little sister would have to grow up and become a real woman. Many times in life we have to choose a path and be committed to it. Nettie would say as they grew up in the small city that she was that mouse in the story that stayed in the small town and Mattie was the big city mouse.

When you go through life thinking you can see everything that is present you will find yourself sounding like a fool but not Nettie she thought she had it all figured out. Mattie would say to Nettie you think you see 20/20. Nettie didn't pay any real attention to this statement since she was the one with the family graduating with honors and pursuing a full filling career. Oh but now she knew what Mattie was talking about because she was place in a very different situation and the glass house she and her family was living in would come crumbling down before them.

It started with a trip to Mexico, Nettie was taking her son so he could experience getting out of the United States. The beach was crystal clear, sugar sand beautiful Stanley said. She left her husband of 20 years behind because he often would tell her he didn't like to travel so Nettie and the children would often go on trips because just the opposite she loved to travel and experience different things. Nettie and Stanley checked in the hotel La Castle. La Castle had granite counters and the floor was tiled with brilliant colors, crown molding deep golden color trimmed the ceiling, tropical plant and tree perfectly place in the lobby.

The room had a balcony with the view of the ocean breathtaking to see, two queen size beds with welcoming baskets. Nettie told Stanley to relax and the next day schedule was place before him. Stanley couldn't sleep so excited to be in Mexico and living so rich he per tended to be a millionaire and ordering dinner sitting with his back to the large headboard. I would like a steak cooked medium. He began to laugh at himself and told his mother how he appreciated traveling though the years with her and that he also shared the love of meeting different people and seeing different things.

Nettie was off to the shower. The steamed filled bathroom with water slowly finding it's path down the mirror. Nettie could not help but think of the terrible news she had received prior to getting to Mexico. Questions rang loud in her head of the insanity of the idea her friend, lover, and husband of so many years could have committed such a horrible crime against a child. She began to cry, sobbing uncontrollable Stanley appeared in her mind. She was determined not to let this problem get in the way of them having a wonderful vacation. She quickly dried off and headed to bed. When she open the door she saw her second born child fast asleep.

SECOND DAY

The sunlight glaring through the window awaken the Nettie and Stanley. Nettie started by saying up and add them the old saying her mother would hurry the kids to school in Nettie's childhood. Stanley rubbed his eyes as he tried to adjust to the bright light in the room. Nettie was up and putting on her cargo pants, she told Stanley to dress for the jungle. Stanley was happy to do so in hopes for a very interesting day.

The tour guide arrived at the front of the hotel. The sign on the cart said Jungle life at it's best. That is our ride said Nettie. Just as she was entering the cart her cell phone started to beep it was a message from Mr. William Post her husband of twenty years, it read I need you here we are having a family crisis. She quickly replied to the message what could be the problem now.

Stanley could tell in her eyes there was something very wrong with this picture. She began to pace on the side of the cart the driver stated we must leave now to make it in time. She agreed to get on the cart and leave. Stanley asked her was there anything he needed to know. Nettie replied no.

Nettie tried to continue with the trip and act as if there was nothing wrong, when the whole family would be changed because of the actions of her husband indecent acts. The jungle trip was very entertaining for Stanley but Nettie could not fully enjoy the tour or the trip knowing that in four days she would have to explain why she did not tell Stanley his father was arrested and in jail.

Two months before this trip Nettie was feeling very sad and depressed about the direction her relationship was headed. She began to pray and ask the Lord and Savior to direct her path and if her marriage was not going to work to send her a sign that she could not help but react to. So many times before William would sweet talk her back into the relationship stating it the right thing for the kids and them. Nettie always fell for this since she was the product of a single parent home. She at an early age told herself if she was lucky enough to have a family she would do what ever it took to keep the family intact. How she made so many sacrifices for her family and keeping the idea family by people standard. The glass house looked wonderful from the outside, however that was so wrong the bitterness and hate inside was enough to create more mental issues than the law allow

C. H. R. I. S.

Customized thinking is one of the most deadly things to fall into. To customize any type of situation or garment is to make a perfect fit. This simple template may only fits one small segment in the journey of life. The moderation in getting the composition correct and not customizing things to fit the situation, we currently embrace is golden. Colorful garments seems to draw the eye closer to experience the brilliant texture, as for humankind a very expressive person can cause people to take a closer look at the complex identity of individuals. I dare you to show one person in your inner circle the true identity of you.


Hypothesis, as my late mother would have told me and my sibling, it's like an anus everyone has one and some don't have a clue what to do with it. So don't find yourselves always looking for the cause and effect in everything you do. Life should be live more than studied. Although, I have to be very careful in this statement because there are a lot of people who would burn me on the cross because the study of human nature drives society in predictions. Options on the menu make your dining pleasures individualized, it does not matter if the table next to you orders the same identical food selections. The experience you have with your taste buds are owned by you same for life's footprints unique qualities for and about you, it just happens with you surrounded by people experiencing similar pleasures and sorrows. So focus on the special identity curves of your fingerprint in life learning to enjoy the laughter and embrace the sorrows that continue to groom us on this path.

Relate is to narrate or tell. It is a six letter word that challenges us to take a look at the way we would like to express our lives goals and accomplishments to the important people in our lives. The sad thing in relating is that we become so overwhelmed in the approval of co workers, friends, relatives and yes even strangers. Their are friends of mine whom instead of putting a great foot forward they would much rather stand still and let life pass them by. I try hard not to just throw up my hands in these situation but I soon remember by the grace of my higher power GOD I could have been in this same situation. Note to self don't judge less ye be judged this even means yourself.

Important incisions in flesh can be considerate life saving procedures in the medical field. The cutting away of muscle, skin, and bone in some situations can be what heals the body and soul. This is why it is important to make sure you have your finger on the pulse of life. But, I must caution you that having the pulse for long periods of time can stop circulation to vital organs. I like the idea of check up during the year to make sure my pulse or goals are being targeted and my course stays steady to accomplish what I have set out to do in life be a help to others and love myself first.


Situations can come about that leaves you gasping for air. In these times it is good to have a safety blanket or a net to break the fall. This can be one of the most uncomfortable things in life and if you can find your way out of these situations your ladder will continue to go up until you will reach the stars and lay with the moon. Now safety is something that many Psychologist write about and the pros's to getting this need met at an early infant stage. What I know about safety is that many times people revisit this stage when things are not going so good. So we need to take a little time to evaluate our blanket for holes and weak areas. Strength will not be a factor in every waking minute but if ever the blanket is tested with weight you want to know it will hold up.

G. A. R. F. I. E. L. D.

Going away can be a very special time used to get from a point in life to another peak in the continued growth of the human aspect of living. The earth was placed through a cleansing period from the early days of Noah. The span is somewhat comparable to the life cycle that has started to reveal it's purpose for me. Forty days and Forty nights rings high on my list of great overall quotes. The beginning and the end of two separate births must be birthed out of pain. The relief of it is that the pain can remarkably be forgotten, if the rewards is great. The way that a mother often states when going through labor that she will never place herself in harms way again and find herself embracing the next pregnancy.


Away the times continue to go, on the time line of life and we should not be confused to think that anyone of us will be here to the ends of the earth. However, we should embark upon the idea of making whatever time we have a positive note or as my brother would often say a good dash in the obituary. Now I don't hold any to do manual or a self help book stating what works for you all I have been given in this life at this time is what works for me. I travel when I have a lot of thing that have to be figured out and decisions to made. My travel is a time where I can focus on the inner true feeling.


Relief can come in all kinds of ways there are relief stop points where it is made for you to take a minute to re evaluate the situation you are currently experiencing. The rotation of life allows you to get to this point many times in your life. The way I realized I had a relief point was after experiencing this for about ten times call me stupid I just could not choose the path in which my mind and soul was telling me to do because it seemed to conflict with everything I told myself was important to me and my so call core family. Growing up in a single parent home for the most part, I told myself after losing my father as a young girl I would have something I never would have experienced as a child a complete family. Looking back at the pain I put myself, family and friends through I can not help but to tell everyone who will listen LOVE YOU first the best thing anyone can do for others you care about is to love you.


Forward is the way the car drives mostly as for the driver they may reflect on the past by taking a quick look at the rear view mirror but the main focus is on the upcoming road and obstacles ahead. This method should be used in life as we navigate throughout the life miles on these trips we call our lives. There are many conversions inches to foot, feet to yard, yards to miles and so on my point is that it might take a few inches to make your foot stable, a few feet to make your relationship steady and few yards to make it a success. Whatever the comparison is the need to keep you car in traffic and going forward is a must.


In finding yourself and what about your personality causes you to see the good in you. Finding the bad is not a hard thing for most people to do we can list a dozen thing in less than five minute time. Take time to list the positive thing you never notice about yourself and every day tell yourself a good thing you listed in an effort to up your personal worth. I thought of my personality, beauty, sense of humor, intelligence, shapeliness as some of the selling points to my personal wealth. I am happy to state that once I started the process I found that more often than not I had no problem attracting positive people in my life. I also had to rebuild my profile. In fact, overall, we are impressed with the how others stack up to what is place in front of us in the different types of media, we must stop and think for ourselves and evaluate things of importance and doing this we can change our situation.


Every important issue has a positive and negative image. There are people that will continue to look for the negative in everything and to those people I believe that to everything there is a season I just hope that the negative can bring about a positive to the many. The basic problem with issues is that you can let them lead you to depression by over thinking. So keep it simple and know that with mental health it is a continuum and at times we are far left and wide right. I would try to keep it mid field but if you find yourself in the left or right lane don't be upset keep going forward.


Living is a gift. The whole idea of living is going about attempting to learn and figure out what is best in your situation. Take for example my life I'm forty years old and as a young child I wanted to protect my mother and sibling rather than find out what made me tic. The young lady became preoccupied with making her man happy which lead to making her children happy. The results 40 years down the road I was a MESS. I allowed myself to be used to make the glass house mentality. Meet the family on the streets and the average person would say you have such a great family achieving the American dream with a home, cars, white collar job. Real life the children witness physical and mental abuse in large portions. The abuse was even embraced in a sick kind of way. I'm so happy I have a loving family that loves unconditionally if not for this I could not be where I am today living life as ME forgetting the nay sayer's. Living life is not a jail sentence and should never be felt as such in the event you think so remember every human being is a special package.

Daily evaluation will keep you on target, reflect on the pass, embrace the future and live life from the drivers seat, take time to relax and relate. Keep you first and embrace the different qualities you bring to this whole world and make it worth while. MESSAGE LOVE YOU AND LIVE. I hope this brings someone closer to finding happiness.